again, you're asking for new advice as if the situation has changed.
it hasnt.
the only advice i can give you is what everyone has been giving you since the beginning.
this is all about YOU. forget him. deal with yourself first. take care of the business aspect. get financially secure.
your x himself had been asking you to deal with the financial aspect but you keep putting it off. job has said this to you over and over and over, and you keep making excuses.
and now you're still putting it off by pursuing reconciliation that some mediator told you, while not doing her actual job.
stop muddying the waters by discussion of reconciliation. if your x wants to talk, let him talk - but afterwards, dont go crazy thinking one conversation had led to reconciliation. in my opinion he is no where near the point of making his decision.
everything is all in your threads.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".