Thanks CW - you're right, it seems that every case is definitely different but with lots of similarities. I'm dark right now. Still it seems to never leave my mind. I keep thinking he'll miss me and make contact. Trying to detach. I remembered that he has my car key so I need to get that back but i'm holding off asking because I don't want to make the first contact. I guess it's not that important. I will need to email him with his half of the bills though(the final bills before he moved out) but I think I'll wait and see another week if he asks for something. Part of me thinks that it's just over. Definitely one day at a time, just keep livin' I'm establishing my own new routine, asking God for patience every day. Getting a new couch this weekend I think which will help me with making this my own home and not the home I shared with him. Already making small changes. I know i'm supposed to stop wondering about him and focus on myself but sometimes I am thinking that how will he know that I want him back. I guess he knows since I told him early on I did not want this divorce. We have not discussed it since but it will be final in April. Part of me hates him for doing this. Part of me thinks it must be a blessing in disguise. This last 2 months seems like forever. He's only been gone a few days so I just have to be still for a moment and see what happens. After all these years it is hard to think of yourself first and not in terms of the relationship or marriage. Now I am going to need to learn to love myself and just be me and not half of a couple. It's difficult when you are used to telling that person something when it happens, even something silly like what the cat did or there was a new bird at the feeder, I lost my friend as well. Not going to dwell on this - just still processing it. I'm not crying anymore so that to me is a good sign. Comfortably numb? I know it will pass, over time. I won't let it break me, life is too short. It's his problem now.
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
I'm establishing my own new routine, asking God for patience every day. Getting a new couch this weekend I think which will help me with making this my own home and not the home I shared with him. Already making small changes. I know i'm supposed to stop wondering about him and focus on myself but sometimes I am thinking that how will he know that I want him back. I guess he knows since I told him early on I did not want this divorce. We have not discussed it since but it will be final in April. Part of me hates him for doing this. Part of me thinks it must be a blessing in disguise. This last 2 months seems like forever. He's only been gone a few days so I just have to be still for a moment and see what happens. After all these years it is hard to think of yourself first and not in terms of the relationship or marriage. Now I am going to need to learn to love myself and just be me and not half of a couple. It's difficult when you are used to telling that person something when it happens, even something silly like what the cat did or there was a new bird at the feeder, I lost my friend as well. Not going to dwell on this - just still processing it. I'm not crying anymore so that to me is a good sign. Comfortably numb? I know it will pass, over time. I won't let it break me, life is too short. It's his problem now.
