W said its over - Said I can't change her mind

[Duds3]

Struggling to say the least today. My feelings of being sad and alone have over taken me. I never had such a sense of helplessness or frustration. I don't understand why my W will not work on our situation, at least give it one more try. And the fact that 29 days ago she was sitting in my life talking about our future leaves a huge knot in my stomach. The thought of her being with someone else makes me want to puke. And it scares me to no end the thought of never being with her again. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on and she changed my life and made me a better person but why this? Why the drastic step of filing for a D? To say I'm crushed and hurt would be an understatement. To hear her say "she is not trying to hurt me" absolutely kills me. She could change this all in a matter of seconds but her stubbornness and hard heart are killing any chance. Our M deserves a chance to survive and flourish but she is refusing to give it any air to do so!