own buz 22:mediation to reconcilliation, hopefully

[makingmagic]

sorry if I was so confusing... I was writing out my thoughts.. I hadn't actually sent it yet. He did not express that he wants to explore this OW.

I made some changes:

Thanks for your honesty today. Again you have left me with alot to process. Due to your friendship, I really feel that it is a betrayal to that cherished intimacy that seems so apparant. I feel that it isnt respective of a reconcilliation or any relationship discussion. At this point, I think we should proceed with separation or if we are to have relationship talks that they be infront of a counceller who can help us sort our emotions and fears so that we are not continually going around in circles emotionally exhausting one another.

SENT.

I feel I valued myself and our 20 year history/intimacy in that message. I feel that we are unable to discuss further R talks without a 3rd party. I hope it doesn't come across as contolling in anyway. Just that I am responsible for what I am doing for myself. Not being available to massage his confusion.

Bond: I did not say anything that leads me to believe he has interest to "pursue".. but maintain OW friendship. He insists it is NOT at all the whirlwind start like us. Also.. he has discussed reconcilliation.. ALOT