She left - My Story, First Post

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Yesterday decided to do some clothes shopping. This is a 180 for me because at one time I remember my W getting upset that I did not buy a flannel shirt that was $8 because I did not think I would get $8 of worth/use out of it. I liked the shirt and after about 15 minutes of debate I decided not to buy it.

I am down about 40lbs since last year at this time and feel good about the way I look. At 6'2" and 185lbs I am looking the best I have in my entire life.

Buying clothes was great and made me excited. I used to hate the process because I was body conscious since about 10 years old. At only $111, I think I bought $1,000 worth of self esteem. I smiled at myself in the dressing room mirror and felt excited about the clothes.

Thursday I am picking the kids up for the evening to go to my Grandma's b-day celebration and I will be looking good in my new clothes! I am excited to spend the evening with my family and even have an Aunt coming in from California for the birthday.

I am pretty much beaming today, even thought it is the W's b-day, and feel good about myself.

This buying new clothes 180 was for me, and I can now understand how women feel when they buy clothes, etc. Clothes were always a necessity for me and the wife has slowly tried to show me how much better I look with better clothes but I never made the effort myself. I have never went clothes shopping on my own in the 9 years we were together, she was always the motivation behind me buying clothes.

My self esteem is higher right now that it has been in years! I know I look good, I feel even better, and I am going to ride this wave and let it inspire more 180s and GAL techniques for me.