TBH, I don't believe you have a drinking problem like some have mentioned.
I just think your constant questioning comes from just being unsure of yourself. Again, it didn't help that your H walked out on you in the past. This situation with your boyfriend just brought all that out again and you're afraid to make mistakes.
No drinking problem and for the record, I've heard MANY people who say they are a social drinker. In fact, when one of my friends was going through a popular dating site, that was one of the selections as to what kind of person you are.
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