Sorry, you did answer one of the questions with "Never." Just noticed this.
Seriously, I'd think on this Magic. It makes a lot of sense why you respond about things the way you do. VERY DEFENSIVELY---like you are protecting a habit that you hold really dear. Is H the habit or is it the wine, or both together?? Is H a part of your drinking "ritual" ???? What if you were told you couldn't have the wine anymore? EVER.
It sounds like alcohol/wine has a very dear place in your life and maybe your relationship with H. Just my thoughts.
I really do wish you well.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
