good observations. It sounds like you're changing (for you) and that's great. I had a small feeling/realization in my workout class today, that I am beginning to do this. In the beginning I think I was more "going thru the motions" of GAL because that was how to get things resolved. I realized this morning that my GAL activities actually feel good for ME even if I don't R with W (at the moment I'd give my chances of R a very low score).
me: 47, W:49 M 16.5 years T 17 years Three kids - D17,D14, S13 Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13 Bomb drop 11/29/13 W moved out 12/5/13 I Retained L 2/20/14 D filed 3/17/14