HS THANK YOU! I started feeling that this is the end. I know that I am extremely new to this sitch, but this is no comfort. I know that it will take time, and I honestly pray to God to endure. However, she gave me a "sort-of" ultimatum of seeing how things will be until the summer. I can't imagine that when summer comes she may ask me for a D.
But I really needed to hear this from someone. I've tried to read the inspiring stories here, but somehow I felt that my sitch is not the same. I don't know what your sitch was, and I think (hope?) that my wife is not in an EA or PA. She seems to want to leave ALL men behind to live her life free. I think she believes that when she is left alone, free from the marriage, she will be released from all the problems that she keeps pent up inside her. At least this is what the C's "diagnosis" was. She believes that she will be freed. Freed from what however? I think she can't even answer that question. In any case, it seems that our marriage has become her demon, and she's trying to get away from this demon...
HS you say two long years... I can imagine every single emotion through those two hellish years... And I pray to God that he will not let me quit... Getting a D is so easy, fighting is so hard... And everyone I talk about this keeps telling me "Why are you doing this to yourself?" As if I am the one with the weirdness... Trying to keep my family together!?!
Melissag thank you as well. I will try not to worry about the future too much, however, this is what I do. I plan. Planning is my second nature. I like to have plans and dreams and hopes about everything. I guess I am an extremely sensitive person, and right now I need to find the "inability" to feel anything. As the L said today, the normal sitch is 2 afternoons every week and 2 weekends per month. I asked if it's possible to ask for more time, and she said that we will ask for as much as possible, but the judges want the child to have "one home" and a "father's residence", to feel grounded. BS if you ask me.
Thank you HS and Melissag, you have given me a little bit more brightness in a VERY angry day... Thank you from my heart.
