Afraid I have waited too long

[nit84]

I am having a little trouble focusing this morning.

While I thought it was good that my W told me she might be going away this coming weekend.

I have now started to fall into the Where?, with who?, and shouldn't you pay the bills first mode?.

Last month when she was gone for the weekend it bothered me something terrible but I dealt with it fairly well and the anxiety went away. I didn't know that she planned to do that so it caught me off guard.

This time is different because she actually told me she might go.
Why this time and not last month?

Also she has admitted that she has no money, needs to tap into the savings a little to pay her portion of March's bills and no plans for this summer, as far as anything just worried about right now.

She says she has had interviews for jobs(highly unlikely) but has yet to get an offer or to accept an offer.

The last two weeks have been a bit different interaction wise. Nothing great, just being there to help out like a neighbor would or to listen to things that are affecting her life.

Just listening, not suggesting solutions or fixing things, to things that are bugging her and validating and empathizing.

There has been a few negative barbs thrown my way but then she backpedals and makes repair comments.

I don't know if I should bring up any of my concerns about paying bills before going away for the weekend or just let it play out.

I don't want it to appear I feel like it is alright to spend money when W has admitted that she cant pay bills unless it is from savings and wont accept any offer of assistance from me.

That is my concern but obviously the underlying concern is where is W going and why and with who?

If I bring up my issue with going away and not being able afford bills.

I fear my W will hear " who are you going with, where are you going and why?" Not my intended subject matter.

I guess I just have to act "as if" it will all work out and take it from there.

Just baffles me why she would tell me that she was thinking about going away this time and not last time.

Am I missing a big waving flag or something?

Confused at the moment, any suggestions or thoughts would be appreciated.