Limbo is the new normal

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This is interesting for sure. I am happy to hear that you are (albeit hesitant to admit) DBing again! I totally understand that you are in a different place with it. One thing this reminds me of is that whenever I feel like giving up (and my sitch is good now but slooooooow to get all the way back to normal and still frustrating sometimes) I think about how I want to give up. Meaning, if I tell him off so to speak, like I am so done with you...then that is what I will get. But if I stay quiet and let my heart decide for me, then I will make loving choices that I can be proud of no matter how the sitch turns out. I think this is what you do too! And as far as the change in prayer, this is exactly what I was talking about when I mentioned the RETURN TO LOVE book and quotes by Marianne WIlliamson. Please read this book. Your prayers turned from fearful to loving. From a place of fear to a place of love. And when that happens, it opens up space for little (or big) miracles to take place. And it is because when you reside in the place of love, your eyes are open to the miracles. Miracles like his job prospect...and to see that HIS change is behavior is due to a shift in his place of fear (perhaps of not providing or being good enough for you) to a place of love and rejuvenation for this potential work. Then there is the miracle of how wonderful your snowboarding adventure is going to be, regardless of anything else going on. I am so excited for you! One thing to remember is that even if you and your H don't work things out...or if this job doesn't work out and he turns from chipper to grouch...your calm and patient reactions are firmly in place and are your personality now. That is another miracle.