It's Time to Sing a Brand New Song

[Mimi00]

Hi Miimi, sorry to hear about the apartment dilemma. Do you have to make a change in your living situation right away? Could you do the roommate thing for a bit and see how it goes? Who knows, maybe you will enjoy the company.

My current lease is up March 31st.... where I live now isn't ideal, I don't feel safe, but the surrounding towns are lovely though, I could possibly move to one of them if where I am considering it too unrealistic right now.

Where I am wanting to move is much close to the main city, and that is where all of my "new friends" i've made since BD live. So when I do hang out with them, they all catch the train home in 15 mins, while I am driving home alone for an hour. Also if I'm going to live the "single life" it would be much more fun and interesting in the city and not in the suburbs where it's more family oriented.

But I will definitely put a lot of thought into it...before I decide.

Sorry you are working so much . . . are you doing what you want to be doing right now, or can you make a change?

My job is ok, I use to love it, but now that I feel like i HAVE to work it survive, it feels different...I'm just growing tired. I am going to start looking for a possible second job that I can end up transitioning to for good that will hopefully pay much more than I currently make. Working is so overrated lol I wish I could just travel for the rest of my life....paint, dance and love.

Mimi, you are still SO young, and you don't have kids - there is so much opportunity out there for you to find love again - when you are ready.

Ha... for the first time in life I am buying age creams and vitamin C serums to hopefully knock and 5 years off of my face. The crying and swelling of my eyes over the last year has definitely done a number on my under eye area. I feel like I have to "compete" again... I've never been one to wear make up, but I'm buying it now and shall learn how to apply it. lol

It's amazing how time flies my birthday is in April... a few days before my 30th birthday in 2013 my H told me maybe we shouldn't be together. In several weeks it will be that time of year again....I hate that I feel that a year of my life was some what "lost".... I definitely learned things over this year... but sheesh.... I will be 31. I can't wrap my brain around that, as I never really got the chance to wrap it around 30.