2S2Q, I am going to jump on the bandwagon here and say that you might want to back up a few steps and look at things through a different lens.
If you really are done, you're done. There is no shame in that.
But I am not sure that you are really done, vs. you are tired of this crappy situation.
If you think it's that you really are done, how do you know?
I can tell you from being there right now, that having filed for D has really only made me feel worse. I didn't have a choice but to file, but if I did, I think I would have waited quite a bit longer. Not because I have really any hope that my H and I will R, but because you just never know what might happen.
There is nothing keeping you from living the life you want to live right now. The only thing you can't do while still M is get married to someone else.
It can get tiring having hope, and having your expectations/hopes constantly dashed. I get it. Maybe just focus on yourself for a bit, and see what happens. Stop thinking about your M, and your W, and what she is thinking, and what's going to happen, and just live.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14