Heather: I was calm, sad but calm... all day. I didnt start spinning again. Although, I can see where you say that when attacked, I DO start throwing slime until it sticks. The difference THIS time (with friend), is that I eventually gave up. I didn't keep persisiting. Maybe not quite the full 180, as I thought.. but maybe 150? A good start.
The thing is... is that I was always trying to "save" relationships. He has chosen not to forgive. His choice.
Bond:
Sorry you feel that way about all the above.
The point I am trying to make about needing to know this, and deserving it.... Is about me tossing in the towel. If he really honours our relationship and all the special factors about it, like he "says". It will happen on its own. I do not need to carry it anymore. Since he "said" all of this... lets see if he will put his money where his mouth is. The sooner I see or don't see it... the better I will be. I don't need to do anything!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
