Magic, this isn't directed to drunkeness, but bad choices or mistakes in general. I have learned in my own life that when we commit an offense, there's usually not a lot we can do to change what has already past. We express our deepest regret and if there is anyway to repair damages, then we do it. We take ownership and do our best to never repeat it. Sometimes, there is nothing we can do to change the situation. It happened and it is what it is. We can't go back in time to erase it. We apologize. It is up to them to accept our apology or not. Do you have to apologize a thousand times for them to finally decide to accept it once? If the unforgiving party can't, or won't, accept your apology, do they want a sacrifice.......or what would they suggest you do to EARN their forgiveness? And let's get real here, the unforgiving party usually wants to see some suffering in you. So, they punish you by seeing how much they can make you grovel.
Like you, I always felt that I had to explain myself in everything! I suppose I felt my actions had to be justified. Sometimes an explanation may help clear up a misunderstanding, but otherwise, it usually doesn't help you that much in a personal offense.
I am not defending drunkenness or any other bad behavior. Like you said, we all have them. Your weakness may be my area of personal strength......and my weakness may be your area of strength. We live--- and have the opportunity to grow.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
