Part 2-H moving out

[Georgiabelle]

Hi Job,

Thanks for the feedback, Job. Actually, I am a rather "touchy" person but I had gotten away from that. I just wasn't "touchy" with him. I have some thoughts as to why and I'm working with my therapist on those. I think no matter what I did (after BD while he was in the house) was going to be met with venom. This is the same man who blamed me for a traffic jam:)

Since moving, I have only initiated one text. H was sick and I didn't want him to get the kids sick so I texted to let him know I would just take kids to school. I either don't respond to his texts or take a couple of hours to do so. Not contacting him is actually easy. I send no cute kid photos, no funny stories, nada.

I have been to the doctor. My doctor remembers my h from all three c-sections. She asked how my cute h was. Sigh.

You know what? I am one of those crazy people who goes non stop. Work, kids, laundry, dog washing, etc. I love to write and I do journal. It is very cathartic for me. I need to focus on being in the moment. I struggle tremendously with that. I used to love to just like to sit and look at the sky for a while or listen to the birds (does this sound hokey?). I always feel like I'm running a sprint.

1)Finish decluttering house
2)Restart my blog (the one that doesn't deal with my personal life)
3)Have a big a$$ yard sale
4)Need highlights
5)Gear up for my Disney trip with my kids. Want us to have a magical time.
6)Have dinner/drinks with friends. I miss this.

I know you are right. Whatever happens, I will be fine. Sometimes the middle is the painful part. But I know-no pain, no gain.

Thanks!

I do need to keep reminding myself I will be fine.