And I did get a piece of self-respect back, just by going up and having that talk. As GPYB says, "you can do this!". It just has to be better next time, and my focus has to be boundaries. It's been years, btw, since I lost control and was angry at my W (some insult yet again).
So what I am supposed to do with my passion and my loneliness? I'd love to spend more time with my d15, right now, but she is with W. Shall I just pull her away, a bull in a china shop? She is the only physically present (so no internet) source of human warmth and play I have.
The movie plan got shifted to tomorrow night, and I instead just picked her up last night, but at least we had time together then. It really feels like she is either with W or me, and W has the advantage.
Bond - everyone - I really appreciate your pushing me to do things.
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
