Part 2-H moving out

[Georgiabelle]

Brutal therapy session. Brutal because I needed to hear to some of it. Therapist noted that I have a difficult time showing emotion and I told her that is why people always think I am made of steel. Of course, I'm not:) I told her it is much easier with my kids but not so in other situations. This is something I have to work on-for me.

She also asked me if our marriage contributed to some of the rage and anger h felt. I said I think he had a lot of rage and anger regarding our relationship, and I wished he would have talked to me about some of this. Do I think his anger and rage have magically gone away since moving out? I told her I thought he had real issues that needed to be addressed. Just like I do.

I feel kind of ugh today. (Key up tiny pity party with chips and dip!)I mean, I know I am not the cause of everything wrong with h and I know this is totally crazy to believe, but when I keep hearing him say he finally likes himself, I can't help but feel I contributed to the dislike of himself. Realistically speaking, I know a stable 40 year old man doesn't take to Twitter (the only "people" he talks to) to say how he finally feels like himself and likes himself.

I have a lot of work to do on me for me.