WANT TO COAST ON FLAT LAND

[Ambivalent]

Today was an emotional day... Someone I wanted to see did not occur. I have mixed emotions about that.

I decided to get out of the house , go treat my daughter to a crepe and conversation.

She is devastated. My H. took out the girl's for my oldest daughter's b-day.

While at the table he was texting back and forth with Julie in front of the girl's.

He then lied to them and said he was texting their Uncle.

My youngest daughter called him on the lie, and instead of apologizing he laughed it off. He also referred to me by my name to them, instead of your mom or mother.

This disturbed her a great deal and she was in tears to me on the phone. I really don't care who he is seeing or what he is doing anymore, but the insensitivity and careless disregard of our daughter's is heart breaking.

I hurt and it crushes me to hear the pain in my daughter's voice, the sadness she really did not have to be exposed. I hurt deeply because she hurts.

I need hugs , and a good cry.

My daughter also told me he opened another account as well.

I don't understand what is going on, he is still paying on the house and bills, putting money in the account, putting money in our daughter's account, and recently went on a Florida trip. He is obviously in a relationship with Julie... Why doesn't he just file?

What is holding him back? I just don't get this whole fantasy.