Maybe to even add to yesterday and feeling empowered yesterday, was going outside of my comfort zone twice. I believe that is considered growth.
Yesterday, I agreed to take my daughter to the concert (driving and being alone, is my issue)...this takes me out of my comfort zone. Yesterday, I also wasn't "eager" when H called, or did I call back, etc. I didn't immediately hop in his vehicle while waiting for our client, instead I waited in my own. Then he asked if I wanted "coffee"... I actually didn't want any (this time) so I said "all coffeed out thanks". He then sat in the vehcile all by himself and had coffee alone, while I decided to shovel. This all feels like a 180 for me, as Magic will ALWAYS want to talk... this time, I didn't. I am certain he was a bit surprized as I am really conflicted with my own thoughts now.
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Church today... then not sure what else.
I guess I need to get back on track with enforcing the mediator business suggestions. Getting my name "temporarily" on 40% of the equitable shares until we are able to discuss the next 10%. He wants to see his lawyer about that... he is afraid that it will implicate him somehow and be committed firm to that agreement. Inspite of realizing that I am at least entitled to 40%.
Heather, it is VERY scary reailizing too that he is not my life vest. He says he still is and wants that position... but, I see him being very selfish these days.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
