One baby step at a time...

[2ndTimeHurt]

Strange days...

I've noticed my ex acting strange/weird/different lately. She seems more friendly and I'm constantly telling myself it's nothing. I go about my days as usual. Her texts are friendlier and she calls a bit more. She doesn't call for no reason though. Usually she needs to ask something. We've had a few family dinners as well.

When I'm out she will ask who I'm out with and what I'm doing. I try very hard to not answer her but she sorta persists so ill just come clean. She did that this morning. She called me this morning to tell me when she wanted me to pick up our son. Then she asked about my night. I told her I stayed at a buddy's house and I wouldn't be able to pick him up right away. I told her I'd pick him up at around 1 because I wanted to get some groceries before getting him. She then said she would come with me. She didnt even need groceries.

Tonight was especially weird. She was out with her friend for her friend's bday. No biggie, I thought I'd have a whole night of no contact(haha, that's me going dim). Her friend posted a pic of the 2 of them out so I gave it a quick "like". That same friend sent me a friend request tonight. I have no clue why she would do that tonight instead of years ago. Anyway, my ex texts me at 2am and asks if I want to grab a late night snack(we always used to go to the diner down the street). I say sure why not. So I pick her up and she starts talking about her night and all the annoying guys she ran into and how her best friend isn't really her best friend anymore and other random stuff. I just listen and listen. So we get to the diner and order food. Then she flat out asks if I've slept with anybody. I dodge the question a few times but she eventually got the answer out of me. Which is a no. She thought I slept around and maybe I should've let her think that but I just wanted to be honest. She thinks im holding on to her more than i actually am and that sleeping around somehow proves to her that ive moved on. I'll just ignore that comment from her. She also asked another weird random question. She asked how important looks are to guys. She said it was because guys kept telling her how pretty she is.

Anyway, I have no clue why she is doing these things with me or why she's asking me these questions if she has mr. Cool guy. I just know I'm fine being around her and I'm not an emotional mess. I think I'm getting used to this roller coaster ride that it doesn't affect me as much. I might not have to get off, haha.