I started my new job on Thursday. I am basically the first employee of a tech start up, developing sales strategy and recruiting& managing a full sales team.
My wife didn't wish me luck before I left home, and then on the commute sent me some needlessly b*tchy texts. I 180'd on this - normally I would have taken it on the chin and sucked it up - but I told her it was unacceptable and I would no longer accept it.
This started a mini txt row (all one way, I didn't argue back), I ignored any abuse and validated like a mad man.
Communication ceased and I went to work. Several calls texts and emails came in throughout the day but I was too busy to reply. By home time I was receiving photos and nice messages. I got home and my dinner was cooking and my wife looked beautiful.
I bathed the kids and put them to bed, and sat and ate with my wife. We sat and watched TV and she asked me to rub her feet. I did.
Throughout Friday we smiled and talked. I could feel her looking right into me. In bed she held my hand and asked me to hold her. I did, it was wonderful, but I made myself pull away and give us both space to sleep.
Yesterday again we talked and flirted. I spent a great deal of time with the kids at the play gym as she went to the beauticians and visited an elderly relative alone. On her return she brought dinner for us all with her. She curled up with me on the sofa, hugging and holding hands and talking. She told me she loved me. She said that she can see me becoming a different person.
I do feel different. I feel more "present" I'm my own body. My thoughts aren't clouded. More thoughtful rather than emotionally reactive.
It feels great but very fragile. I am under no illusion that this could all disappear as quickly as it appeared.
My plan is more of the same - continue GAL, fitness and diet, spending quality time with the kids, and thoughtful self examination.
What do you guys think?
Me 41, W 39 Married 5 years Together 10 years S4, D2
