Barrybran III - New job, new life?

[Barrybran]

I'm six days through a seven day stint at work. I feel good and I'm looking forward to my days off on Monday and Tuesday. Today, my wife went to a horse racing meet in town with friends. She had been looking forward to it and bought a new dress for the occasion. She doesn't care what I think but she looks amazing in it. She left while I was work today so I haven't seen her at all today and my parents looked after the kids. Like a couple of weeks ago, I'd love to have seen the 'finished product' of how she looked today but we're not in a position for that right now.

After work the kids badgered me to take them to the park. Apparently they asked my wife and she told them to ask me when I got home. I can tell when my kids are lying and telling the truth and it was a very 'my wife' thing to say (not a dig; I just know my wife) so I believed them. I was going to take them yesterday but it never happened so today I made no promises. The kids were too far into their cartoons so I let them go and wrote the park idea off. I gathered a shopping list together, announced my plans and all of a sudden I had three kids who finished their afternoon tea, got dressed and had shoes on to go out. As we were heading to the shops they asked to go to the park again and I figured why not. They enjoyed themselves and I enjoyed seeing them have fun and being out of the house myself. It got me thinking about the possibility of living on my own away from my wife and that I would be ok with it though I'd rather work if out and stay with her.

After we got home we had dinner without my wife and the kids were more interested in spending time with my parents. I'm over my parents being here so my wife and I have been spending our evenings in the other living area and that resulted in some alone time tonight which was nice but I didn't know what to do with myself as I was tired and there was nothing I wanted to do or watch on tv.

I'm taking an early night tonight as my wife isn't home and I can read some more DR. She told me a couple of weeks ago she wouldn't be home tonight but that was before I got my job and she hasn't brought it up since. I don't know what her plans are but I leave the house for work before 7am and my kids will definitely be up and about by 7:30am. Needless to say, if my wife isn't here I'll have confused kids and a pissed off mother since she'll have to wake up and sort them out. We'll see what happens.

Either way, my wife is out having fun and I'm appreciating that that's a good thing for her and us, even if 'us' isn't on her mind right now. My mind did wander a couple of times but I instantly pick it up now and I'm able to shut it down. I would like her to come home tonight but for the kids and to not put my mum out. I am looking forward to having a bed to myself though as I've felt awkward climbing into our bed with my wife there of late.