I agree I am likely trying to "rush" the process. I agree H needs to figure out his stuff and I offer him ALL the time in the world to do so. However, once I realized he is maintaining his "friendship" with OW, I declared a boundary. So, I am now trying to figure out my place.... my heart realizes that our relationship is unique/possibly a rare one. If "she" wasn't in the picture, I would accept his slow pursuing ways. BUT, the fact that my HEAD knows the difference now, and I stated "not interested" as long as he keeps her around.
Do I accept his pursuing or decline because I have stated a boundary. I would not want to reneg on this boundary now, as this would make me look like a fool and that he can have his cake.
I more than want to back off a bit, I want to runaway...I fear screwing all this up!!!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
