No, it isn't bad...but it's better to be thankful for the small blessings and knowing he got the money in the bank in time for your trip to NC.
The small blessings and thinking positive will bring you much larger blessings in the end.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
