Man I feel for you too. My W had a miscarriage about 3 years ago, and I think tqhat maybe she is now having a bit of a MLC in the mix. I can't be sure but I'm doing all I can to do my 180s for me and who knows, maybe she'll come around. My only fear is that if she leaves then I may lose everyday contact with my daughter. Plus I am very much in love with my W still, and it hurts like a mother thinking about her not loving me back.
I do have a cry at times when I'm alone and I keep repeating to myself that it is OK to feel like crap. Your whole life was turned upside down and inside out... Hang in there, and if you want check out my thread as well. Some similarities although I am not aware if there is OM. From my W's behavior I think (hope?) there isn't...


M 38 W 38
D 7
M 10
T 20
Bomb drop 2/10