I know everything you are saying is true, I am playing a victim. I do need to take care of myself, if not for me for my kids. I just have to figure out how to take that first step.

I did do something for myself, I called someone to come clean my house! Big step for me since that was always one of issues...I'm horrible at taking care of the house thing. When I was working we would argue about having someone come clean the house. Now that I haven't been working I feel I should be able to take care of the house. Guess what, I suck at it, I don't like it but I like it clean...so hire someone I did!


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since