Can a person be done one day and not done the next?
Eric! Always making me think! I have thought quite a bit about my answer and IMHO, no. At least in situations like mine which are basically static. Nothing has changed and so the roller coaster is all mine to own. Done is a consistent peace. If the situation were to change, if Skippy makes an effort, being done could also slowly change. But this up and down business without any real changes in situation is not being Done. At least not to me.
Heather, I have actually been suffering with a bit of depression which came on last year. The cloud I refer to is the seeming inability to pick myself fully up. I sometimes feel like a stranger in my own skin. I know quite a few of us go through that here. I am working on some ways to dispel that cloud. I hate that it is there at all.
MizJ, this was beautifully written:
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Perhaps it cannot be actively quashed. Perhaps that last flicker of hope only dies from neglect, from stopping the nourishing dreams and wishes. I understand your wish to "get there", to be without the hope, because the hope carries the hurt doesn't it?
And incredibly insightful. Yes, the hope does carry the hurt. I have conquered expectations, I am working on me, I am doing better at work but...(I hate that there is a BUT!)deep down, I would like the chance to "fix" this. Given the circumstances, that seems incredibly stupid to me, but there it is.
Except for the last few days dealing with a raging flu bug (is there anything less dignified?), forward I go.
