Thanks Melissa, I agree, my sister is my rock and I have confided in one other friend. Unfortunately neither one lives here. I did talk to my SIL briefly but she initiated the conversation, and I asked her not to say anything I said to H cuz he would be pissed. She understands her brother and knows that. I have no intention on talking to her about it anymore.

I do feel isolated, but honestly I have been living a very isolated life for quite some time. I'm know that this has been part of the problem with my marriage.

I'm not taking care of myself very well, have not eaten much in the past few days and am very weak, can't hold much down. I have a counseling appt this afternoon and am afraid I won't be able to drive there.

J


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since