work is good; H is crazy

[Whiterose]

Hi Eric,
I agree, Portia, hit the nail on the head.......

You've also hit the nail on the head, I am scared, when it comes to H I lose my nerve and I just don't understand this in me. I'm, generally, quite a strong person, but, you put him "in front" of me and I don't want to rock the boat for fear of????? he'll make it worse? he'll divorce me for real? he'll never wake up and come back? I don't understand my feeling when he messages me and, quite frankly, it frustrates me because I know it and I can't seem to overcome it. Throws me into a tailspin and I'm unable to work out a proper response for myself.

No, the money possibly saved is not worth the grief.....