lost18, I have been there walking circles in the house. Things will get better. Definitely follow Cadet's advice and get out and GAL, it helped me move through the initial grief and emotions.
Keep you chin up.
M:34 XW:34 Together: 10y Living: 9y Married: 7y Son:6 Son:4 Separated: 12/28/13 Piecing: 5/2/14 Separated 2nd: 10/16/14 W filed, but pulled it: 11/5/14 papers served: 1/27/15 D final: 3/6/15