As for interest in another relationship... I agree, I cannot imagine the intimacy or ever be as intense. I wonder at what point, that changes. I do feel that its possible that the grass could be much greener for me.... but, have concerns that I would never reach the level that we had, with someone else. Which is why I feel I try soooo much harder to DB and my goal is still to R with h. I am very curious how this change happened for you.
Can I suggest something? Take another look at that and ask yourself what was different about YOU when before. I suggest that the only thing really different is that your perspective has changed. Your understanding of things has changed.
The only thing that will stand in the way of you having a better relationship in the future, with even more intensity and even more intimacy with either a new R with your current spouse or a new R with somebody else, is.... YOU.
See what I mean?
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."