I have been scrubbing the house all day, and that's been a pretty good workout so far! I am going to compliment this with a bike ride later in the dy before I collet the kids from preschool.
This evening I will be preparing for my first day in my new job which is tomorrow.
It has been a good day so far.
Once my AD meds kick in properly I will be seeking IC. My doc says that I am currently too unwell o speak to a counsellor, and I must agree that as I start to feel better my thoughts are becoming clearer and less clouded. I don't find looking at my self very easy, and then analyzing my finds is even more difficult. It seems a huge process of searching, analysis and the interpreting the finds to put to work to alter my behavior. It's a little daunting to say the least.
The unwanted feeling is always there. I don't know if it can go away, or if it is too much who I am. However, I plan to replace it with a "Needed" feeling. I am becoming a needed part of this family - I want to support my wife emotionally, financially, physically. I will be involved in every aspect I raising my children - not just feeding/dressing/bathing but pro-actively engaging them with school, hobbies and helping them grow emotionally - the worst case scenario for me is raising the next generation of fvck ups like me.
What else can you recommend?
Me 41, W 39 Married 5 years Together 10 years S4, D2
