The flowers were delivered....Good job. I am going to remind you though to move on with your day. Don't focus on what has transpired with the delivery, it is just part of the day and move on.
Sounds like you have a good day planned....I saw that you were going to setup/move the gym equipment....Do you have a workout planned also?
Back to your childhood....It seems that your father basically made you feel unwanted. As a young adult you then found happiness through filling this unwanted childhood feeling by having sex. Thence in your married life...once again you were clingy and used sex to feel wanted by your wife. Of course, this clinginess made you less and less attractive as the marriage progressed and your sex life dropped in regularity. Eventually to the point that in your sleep (subconscious)your mind drove you to having "sleep sex" to get this empty feeling inside you filled. Do you realize how much this sets you up to be an extremely co-dependent spouse? For you I feel, the biggest and hardest 180 is going to be dealing with this residual "unwanted" feeling form your childhood. You really need to address this to move on with your marriage and life.
So how do you plan on going about working on this "unwanted" feeling?
