Feeling like curling up in a ball and staying in bed until this is over. I know that's not realistic. Kids have no idea, but if I can't pull it together soon my older ones may start to figure out something is wrong.

I have a number for a counselor, going to call and get an appt. Also found an attorney, just want to see what my rights are.

On another note, have not heard from H, have no idea if he even made it to his destination. I'm not surprised I haven't heard from her but concerned he hasn't replied to either of our daughters texts since Sat. That is not like him.

Struggling
J


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since