Another awkward day of living with my wife. Small chit chat, kids go to bed, she goes to the bedroom, I stay in the living room until I feel like going to sleep.

Always tense it seems these days. Even though we talk less (chit chat) and rarely if ever speak of R (only if she initiates). I am so mired in what is and can't seem to come up with anymore 180's. I am doing the 180's for me, the long term ones, but have tried some shorter lived ones and not gotten a response.

Perhaps short term is a description for a lack of consistency. Ok, that's it. Here on out, LRT. So far I have only been able to do that for about 4 days. I was mistaking detaching with going dark and getting confused I think.


me 41 w43
married 20 years
BD 10/10/13 ILYBNILWY....
4 kids, 21,18,8,6