Woke up early in the morning. Couldn't sleep and watched soccer. W and S awoke hours later. W was talking to me about her family and I sat and listened. Even turned the TV off. W then suggested we get together and play a game. I was pleasantly surprised. I read about real giving and didn't question what I took as a "gift". I said sure that would be great. I then expanded the idea to asking her to watch a movie with me in the living room to which she liked the idea and agreed. Then she expanded by suggesting we go to breakfast first which I agreed.
I was so happy that I FINALLY had this avalanche of good feelings and breakfast was great. I listened to her talk about her fears of a recent car deal she committed to. After breakfast, I asked if she wanted to revisit the dealer while we were out. She was really happy at that suggestion and so we did. The dealer and the manager spoke with her and soothed all her fears. She was very appreciative of me going out of the way to do that for her.
We went home, watched the movie and in the middle of it her job called her in ruining the rest of our plans. She apologized and said she didn't want to but really needed the money. I assured her it was ok and that's what she needed to do.
By her suggesting the game and agreeing to watch a movie with me, it marked the first time since BD that she did this. Even though i'm trying not to read too much into it, DAMN it felt really good to do things as a family again even for a couple of hours.
Me 43 W 43 S 10 (Special Needs) M: 14 yrs T: 18 yrs Bomb: 09/16/12 Filed for D: WHO KNOWS???
