Recent events have shown me how broken my W truly is. My stepfather passed away somewhat unexpectedly and my W showed zero compassion or love during it all. I understand that an MLCer has a hard time dealing with death because it reminds them of their mortality. I was incredibly disappointed by her childish behavior throughout the process. I have zero expectations for her towards me anymore. I truly thought there might be some semblance of a human adult being inside of her. I was wrong.
I dealt with 3 children all day Sunday as I picked up my mother and spent the day with her. One 10, one 12, and one 39. The day consisted of funeral home, lunch, funeral, and spending time at moms afterwards. A draining day to say the least. My children were shown 2 VERY different examples of how to act during the process. My 39 year old W played with them at inappropriate times, laughing and giggling like a child. She showed only care for my stepsister when she saw her in front of a crowd. No compassion for my mother who was burying her husband. Played and laughed in the van the whole time while she wasn't complaining about riding in the middle row cause my mom was up front.
This woman is completely broken. Reconciliation with her is the farthest thing from my mind. Followed that up by coming home with a huge shopping bag full of clothes for her and the boys yesterday. She had already commented earlier that the savings account was empty.
Only thing I can do right now is continue trying to protect myself financially and emotionally by removing myself from everything. I am getting off the roller coaster and getting out of the way of this train wreck. Must survive til June in current living situation.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
