1. You've said many times that your H didn't have a good role model. Not an excuse, just an explanation. Without seeing the need to change, none of us would. We continue to walk around doing as we were programmed.
2. All parents parent differently (I know that's not a news flash). We each bring our weaknesses as well as our strengths. Your H had enough good qualities that you were attracted to him, married him, had babies with him. What are the good qualities he brings to parenting?
3. When you got in that fight at Disneyland, how did it start? Do you remember what you said? (I'm asking what you said cause it doesn't matter what he said, he's not here and you didn't like his behavior some I'm guessing you spoke first)
Knowing what you know now, how would have handled that differently, leading with love and keeping the R in front of your mind?
And about those really bad days...I eventually got to the place of accepting them and being almost happy when they occurrred cause it meant I was peeling another layer of my crap and would feel so much better after.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
