own buz 22:mediation to reconcilliation, hopefully

[makingmagic]

struggling a bit today.... inspite of trying to focus my energy on my work, cleaning, myself... it keeps going back "there".

This past week, R suddenly was placed on the table. Now that the weekend is here, I feel its been set aside and placed "beside" the table.

I know he has fears that need to be addressed. These are HIS fears, but he is keeping me at arms reach. Afraid to commit either way. How can I help ease the fear for him? I still want HIM to decide whats best for HIM, but maybe he's fearing that I am not doing enough to pursue him? or to ease his fears?

I feel like we are losing momentum...