I was here about 10 years ago, my husband came home, things were better for awhile, but stopped working on myself and here I am again.
I'm almost 44, H almost 50 married almost 18 years. 2 girls together 15, 12 and I have an 18 you son from prior relationship.
Without making this post too long, we have had several issues throughout our marriage, probably more bad than good but mostly we just existed together. For the past 6 years he has been working overseas, he was just home for 2 weeks and told me he was going to file for divorce. Said he's not in love with me anymore, and he has stopped caring about making this marriage work. I have suggested many times that we go to counseling, he thinks its a waste of $$ because we know what our problems are but neither one of us is willing to change.
I know things that I have to do for me but am really lonely and lost right now. I'm mad at myself for the way we left things when I dropped him at the airport. I accused him of having met someone else a few days before and let it get to me therefore he left pissed off at me, he told me I need to accept that the marriage is over. If I would have let it go, we would have said goodbye on a positive note.
I want a chance to save my marriage but am afraid he really is done for good.
