hi all -- no, I have not been here before -- brand new. Thanks for the nice notes. I just burned out on feeling sick about a month ago; I decided to start doing something and to stop being in the dumps all the time. I am certainly not happy all the time, but I am handling things much better. Here is something funny: I told you guys about the quote, "do you love her enough to be generous and put your hurt aside?" So, I keep business cards with this quote on it in my wallet. When I get in a jam, feeling down, or upset, or lost I pull one out sign it "yes!" and date it. If we work things out, I will give them to her to show her that I knew things would be okay, and that I never gave up on her for one day -- that I did not waiver one bit. If we do not make it, I will keep them and show myself that I never gave up. a win-win!!