I got up this morning and W was babysitting her girlfriends son, he's and he spent the night. I like this little guy he is one of the best babies I have ever come across, even W thought so. I told him that he had the best baby sitter in the world and he couldn't go wrong. W over heard me and she said I don't know about that. I just said to him yes she is.
W went to her counseling meeting today, so I've beeen reading abunch of blogs while she's gone. I'm taking my step S, D and her cousin to an arcade today, so we can have some fun. GAL.
I was wondering alot of these situations on here, I notice we have to become this person who has to balance everything on type rope. I mean like really listen to them give them support and empathy. Something I have not done in a long while even though I'm not engaging the conversation first, I have to apply this, and I think I missed a clue when I got into bed the other night when she made the noise referring thats it when I rolled over and said good night. I think she wanted a kiss, we have kissed eachother every night since we have been together. I do know a little later on she asked If I was sleeping ok, I said yes, she said she feels tension in the bed. I said I can go sleep in the other room, she said no. I did feel some tension and its because I normally kiss her and then snuggle her. We havent sinse she filed for D.
I really need to figure this out better. I have been feeling ok inside and I really don't want to lose this women, she has a ton of awesome qualities. I don't want to focus on any of her bad ones, as a matter of fact I forgive her for them.
many times my W has told me we have issues, like a fight or blow out which we didn't have often and the next day would come and I would treat it like its anew day and it never happened. I'm guilty as charged. I now know I have to listen to her and validate her feelings and not sweep it under the rug.
I know I'm jumping all over the place but these things are popping in my head and I want to get them out there.
The thing that has me concerned is this phone switch and her not giving me the number, also her taking her rings off. She did tell me that they are in a safe place and she didn't want me trying to take them off her finger like I tried when I was drunk one time. Idiot I was with that drinking at times. I havent drank in 4 weeks. Big change there.
I'm not sure if there is anyone else EA or PA, i could check the old phone records from her phone and I have checked it before and most are her girlfriends I know the numbers. Thing is does it really matter at this point. I have to keep on improving me. If she was seeing OM can I stop it, probably not. is it a deal breaker for me if she had a PA, probably not, I believe EA is worst than the PA.
Question is, I need to figure her out in what the heck she is telling me, she talks in code. I better go read men are from mars and women are from venus again.
