Ab, you do have things to look forward to. It all you your head. You can grief your old life, but you can have dreams about the future and picture yourself happy and in a great relationship. Whether it will be your X (when he comes to his senses) or a new fabulous guy, you will be OK. You deserve it.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state