In my defense. It's been 24 months since my H has lived at home. I know we are not legally divorced. But, he has invited the OW to live with him and they have been living as a couple for most of those two years even before he invited her into the apartment sometime this summer.
I feel very little regret about wanting to explore my options at this point. In some ways, I needed to see if I was able to have feelings for someone other than the man I spent the last 30 years of my life with. I'm tired of being alone and this showed me that there are other options--maybe wayyy better people I deserving of my attention.
I joined on Friday and I will cancel tonight.
And, a big fat raspberry to both of you.
P.S. One thing I learned...when you are looking for someone, sometimes it really COULD be anyone. I see that now. If you feel lonely enough and tired enough, it's easy to compromise your whatever to ease the loneliness. I'm not suggesting this makes it ok to cheat, but I have a different perception than I did. Sadly, our spouses didn't see what was right in front of them.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
