Ab, I can so relate to this sentiment. I do the same thing. I look around think,"How come THEY have it together?"
"How come THEY have a nice car?"
"How come THEY have a husband who didn't cheat?"
Well, truth is...Of the married couples I know, I wouldn't trade with one of them. They ALL have their problems. And, I'm afraid I can't really pinpoint one couple that has a great relationship. In some ways, I think WE may be the lucky ones. I know, I know...I coulda done without he betrayal and the cheating and the lying...But, WE have a chance to reinvent ourselves at a time in our lives when we really know what and who we are are. That's kinda cool.
And, some of what you are feeling is grief. I think it's normal to go through phases of feeling like you are until the grief becomes a smaller and smaller part of your life. This is all very fresh still. You have had a lot of changes in a very short span of time. Allow yourself time to heal and give yourself credit for surviving the last year or two.
Much Love,
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
