I'm a slacker and I've just had a chance to catch up. I can relate to hating to feel like you are in limbo, but you received some incredible advice. I loved what 25 yrsMLC said. 8 weeks is nothing. I know. It feels like 800 years but it isn't:). I keep telling myself I just want to skip the remainder of 2014 and see where I will be. Noooooooo! I don't really want to do that and neither do you.
You sound like you really enjoy your kids and that's wonderful. Remember, they are are only this age one time and their (and your) lives can't be put on hold. I agree with everyone else. Pull back. Pull waaaay back. Think you will feel better.
Hang in there!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer