Totally makes sense. Thank you so much, 25ymlc, for taking the time to share your experience and wisdom. It couldn't have come at a better time.

I have made the decision this week to be as happy as possible. I smile, have listened to some inspiring people on TV/CD and feel like I am taking control of 'me' again.

At the same time I'm choosing this path, H is more distant than ever. He's been gone for 2 weeks...I know, not very long. This is HUGE for my H. He shows no desire to come home. He barely engages me in simple conversation, and he has pulled away from friends/family more than ever.

He 'visits' the kids, but has become such a minimal part of their lives. I know he's incredibly unhappy, but chooses his empty life over the restoration of his family. So difficult for a healthy person to understand. I feel better when I am away from him.

25ymlc, thanks for continuing to help others after your M has been restored. You are a gem to those of us who are just starting down this confusing path. Thanks for taking our hands.


Me:33 H:35
M: 12 years
D-15 S-6
Bomb: 6-2013
OW: 11/2013
Kids and I moved out: 11/2013 when he continued to lie about affair
Kids and I moved back in 12/2013
H moved out 2/2014