I want to take back MY life ... and I am starting today. For so long, I have given H and the sitch too much space in my head. I have been GAL and keeping busy, but I have been living in a fog most of the time. I also have a lot on my plate with work and the kids and all of other demands in life. Before I get fired, I seriously need to start paying more attention at work. I also felt like I have been putting off stuff around the house.
Today, I cleaned out and organized every cabinet and closet in the house except for the kids closets. I cleaned our home office and organized every bill for the 2013 and input the information into a spreadsheet for our taxes. It was good to look through the information in light of our S. At least I know where everything is. I bought a hanging rack for the kids' bikes to install in the garage. I will get that up tomorrow. I went through my closet and now have two huge bags of clothes that no longer fit that I plan to donate.
My parents are coming over tomorrow to watch the kids. I am going to organize our unfinished basement area that is filed with baby stuff, tubs of the boys clothes and everything else you can imagine. We literally have just been shoving everything into the room and you can no longer get into it. I will also clean out the kids closets and organize the hand-me-downs and get everything stored in the proper tubs in the basement. I will install the bike rack in the garage and steam clean the family room carpet.
On Monday, the kids and I will do something fun together and relax!!
I feel a little more like myself each day. When I was cleaning up, I found myself putting H's stuff away in places that he could find it when he finally moved out as opposed to thinking about him moving back in. I guess that maybe my brain is finally realizing that this may be permanent. I guess after 7 months it was time
I feel so accomplished. I don't want to feel like I am floundering anymore. I don't want to continue to let my H and his decisions negatively impact my life anymore than they have to.
Hopefully I will be just as productive at work this week and catch up. It would be a huge relief to have the house and all my work stuff organized.
