Leaping from tree to tree! As they float down the mighty rivers of British Columbia! With my best girl by my side! The Larch! The Pine! The Giant Redwood tree! The Sequoia! The Little Whopping Rule Tree! We'd sing! Sing! Sing!
Oh, I'm a lumberjack, and I'm okay, I sleep all night and I work all day.
CHORUS: He's a lumberjack, and he's okay, He sleeps all night and he works all day.
I cut down trees, I eat my lunch, I go to the lavatree. On Wednesdays I go shoppin' And have buttered scones for tea.
Mounties: He cuts down trees, he eats his lunch, He goes to the lavatree. On Wednesdays he goes shoppin' And has buttered scones for tea.
CHORUS
I cut down trees, I skip and jump, I like to press wild flowers. I put on women's clothing, And hang around in bars.
Mounties: He cuts down trees, he skips and jumps, He likes to press wild flowers. He puts on women's clothing And hangs around.... In bars???????
CHORUS
I chop down trees, I wear high heels, Suspenders and a bra. I wish I'd been a girlie Just like my dear papa.
Mounties: He cuts down trees, he wears high heels Suspenders and a .... a Bra???? (mounties break off song, and begin insulting lumberjack)
The old Heather would've texted and prodded and pushed with this last D11 situation until Smokey finally budged and acted the part of the caring father. I would have pushed him to be his "better" self. That's not my job anymore. Or ever.
I'm going to take a bubble bath. I'm going to paint my toenails and pick up the house. I'm going to exercise.
I'm going to touch base with the tech writing people.
I'm going to enjoy my life, get some stuff done and be happy.
DAMMIT! Screw him. Dumb, stupid, sicko, bastard, creep, pondmuckin, sh!t bastard of a father. ELF HIM!
In other news... I joined EHarmony. Now, before everyone gets all...are you ready and are you getting divorced and all THAT...I joined with the intention of providing myself a little safe flirtation. I didn't post my picture and I used an alias.
I just want a safe way to sorta explore. I never dated in high school and this stuff is really a foreign turf to me.
I have several conversation offers. One guy is really sweet and even likes Monty Python!! Smokey doesn't. Jerk.
Anyway. I need some diversion right now. I have a ton of writing/work to do in order to build up the savings and I need a fun outlet. This will do while the weather is cold and dreary. Not looking to date necessarily, more to meet some friends and have some fun conversation.
Also, does anyone have any suggestions for workouts that tone? I was looking at pictures from when I was in good shape a few years ago before BD and I had worked all summer to get in shape. I was a size 8 and I still looked kinda beefy. I hate how I photograph. But, it's frustrating that I will lose weight and still feel heavy. I know weights are the answer but I'm not sure what I'm doing and how to slim down using weights. Or maybe Yoga? I want look long and lean.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
Great news! Now, stick to your boundaries about the deadline expectations, etc.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Attagirl, Heather! You are a business woman now and gotta think & act like one. STC is a wonderful venue to get ideas, jobs, and expand your skill set.
Heather, Why do you continue to "expect" things from him? You know he's unreliable, so why continue to set yourself expecting him to be a responsible adult? It's not going to happen for a very long time, if ever. Let the expectations go.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
